Takins a hard decishon...

A few weeks ago, mes had a a bery rebealins conversashon withes mes Aunty/Godmommy Syn ans mes Unkie/Goddaddy Haven.  One of the topics on tha conversashons was mes friend Baby.  She said fings abouts her mes wasnts surprised to hear BUTS mes didnt really wanna beliebs. 

Baby & Mes

Baby was the first friend mes made in SL.  Wes instantly clicks.  She was crazy, always laffins ans taughts mes how to bes a kid in SL.  She tooks mes under her wing.  She woulds always takes cares of mes cus as she said she was 5 ans mes was 4 so that made me the baby.  Shes a bery generous person too, makins sures mes habs eberfins mes needs, makins sures all mes dreams comes true.  Thats the side abouts Baby mes lubs. 

Baby & Mes doins mes first hunt ebers in SL @ Lemondrops Forest

But Baby also habs a side mes dunno likes.  Latelys this the side thats has beens showins mores ans mores.  Shes sayins stuff abouts mes, abouts stuff mes dones to hers or mes makins her feels a certain way whens wes tawks.  Mes really dunnos whats wrongs withes hers.  Shes accussins mes of beins means to her.  She habs been sayins stuff abouts mes when they not truft.  Not only to mes but to our sissy ans bestie Spirit.  Afters the stuff mes founds outs its hard tos decides whats mes gonna dos.  Not habins Baby in mes life is somefins mes fut it wills neber happens cus wes sissys forebers.  Ans whens mes says forebers mes means forebers!  But, ebens withes all that, shoulds mes habs someone likes that in mes life?  Shoulds me always bes a targets of what she says abouts mes?

Da 3 Moskateers: Jess, Baby & Spirit

Mes lubs Baby withes mes life.  Hers, Spirits ans mes wes Da 3 Moskateers.  So yous see, its so hards.  Mes wish fings were differents, mes wishes fings weres likes they weres in da beginnins.  Mes wishes wes coulds go backs.

No mattters the decisions mes maskes mes always gonna lubs her forebers ans ebers.

Beins a kid in SL

Hewwos, this is mes first post fows this blog.  Mes kinda nerbous cus mes dont knos who wills be readins this.  First, ms name is Jessika, but eberones calls mes Jess, cepts fows mes daddy who calls mes Jessie.  Mes donts feels likes a Jessie, but he says mes his sunshines so mes finks its okies.  But no one elses cans! 

Jessika Pexie

Whens mes gots into SL, me fiwst was ans adult.  Mes hads no idea that kids exciteds hewes.  The first times mes mets a kid avi face to faces mes kinda freaked outs cus mes didnt undewstands why peoples were doins thats.  After meetins some kids ans bisitins places likes Cartoon Kids, MAWs ans Willowdales mes realized thewes mores that meets the idea.  Mes learneds that every kid in SL has a reason to be ones.  Its habs nuffins to dos withes pedo/freaky stuff.  Some had bad childhood ans wants to relibs it in their own terms.  Othews sees the business aspects of it ans feels its easier to habs a kids business.  Othews do its cus it funs.  Mes cants complaints abouts mes RL childhood.  Of course it wasnt perfects, BUT mes neber lacked anyfins ans was lubs by eberones in mes fameleh. 

Me sees beins a kid as a way to excapes the day by day of my RL exsitance.  Mes likes beins a kid cus mes cans bes free.  Mes cans laff at silleh stuff wifouts beins labeleds as immatures or childish, mes cans mes a brat ans say whats on mes mind.  Some might not likes it, buts thats why mes warns eberones to read mes profile fiwst.  Mes RPins as a kid 100% of the time.  Ans what mes says not necesarillys means mes feels it in RL.  Jess is who mes was when mes was 4 in RL (buts withes the wisdoms of mes RL self, who dont wanna thats!)

Jess Pexie, 4

Beins a kid in SL is not easy buts not hard eithers.  Beins a kid teaches yous tolerance, acceptins ans understandins thats wes all diffewents.  Mes learneds mes lessons as a kid in SL.  Mes hurt peoples ans said fings mes shouldnt habs.  Whens mes log offs ans becomes mes RL self back, sometimes mes realize it wasnt mes finest hour.  So all mes cans do is finks ans trys to do betters next time.

Mes wouldnt change beins a kid in SL.  Mes met the bestest fwiends ebers, mes nebers would changes thats.